fulfill my little wish; just to grow old with you and be your little girl always*

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I canât believe it,
Tell me Iâm dreaming
But we are still âweâ

It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me

It was on a rainy day that we met
You didnât have a place to go
I said we just met so letâs go slow
But no, you just told me to keep you from the cold

Sorry, I canât take it
Why did you fake it?
Why did we kiss?

And Iâm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
Youâll never know how much Iâve been around
How my heart just frowns

If youâre down
Iâll be your teddy bear, Iâll be your clown
Iâll take you round and round and
If you donât mind, I could be your standing ground
Even if that means, Iâd drown

And baby, thatâll be my one last vow

Monday, January 30, 2006 @11:53 AM

*Happy.Chinese.New Year

First of all,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Gong Xi Fa Cai xD

It's already the 2nd day of CNY today, and the last 2 days (including CNY eve) was great! ^^

On CNY eve, had reunion lunch at home with my family! (reunion dinner was at my grandma house) Nice! *yum yum

After the lunch, cabbed down to town to meet ET to walk around and buy some stuffs before heading back home together.

Reunion dinner was at my grandma place, steamboat! hahaha.. Love it! xD Followed by a whole series of games, fun, walking back and fro to 7-11 and the basketball court! Oh ya, we played basketball! hahaha.. Haven't touch ball for soooooooooooo looooooooooooong! Miss it! >.<

Was home at around 12 plus in the morning, and was more games with just me, ET and my sister. (the others went to bed already la.. >.<) It's freaking 5 +++ am before we headed to bed! *sleepy

On CNY day, went my grandma house at about 4 pm? Ate a little and it's mahjong time! hahaha.. Lost $6, so sad.. It's alright, it's CNY anyway.. =P

After that, met Renee.iaN.grace.clar at Clarke Quay and headed to Eski Bar to chill. So coincidentally Daryn and Jan was there too..! hahaha.. Left Eski Bar at 12 am and went to Fernanda's Bar (Ktv bar) and chill till 4 +++ am, and Daryn and Jan joined us but on different table though. =P

And my phone ran out of batt at around 2+++ am.. :(

logongimsorryformakingyouworried>.<

P.S. Photos refer to my xanga. ^^

you know you love me*

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 @8:41 PM

//*dream.oN

*sigh >.<

I wished for a sum of money, maybe $1000 or..?

For I have too much stuffs that I wanna buy, and do.

Contiune dreaming.

you know you love me*

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 @6:33 AM

*Morning//*a.day.without.sleep

It is 6.34 am now.

First thing first, happy birthday Shuan! (= *thanks for keeping me company for so loooooong on msn while i did my prototype

Didn't manage to sleep at all, and I know many of them didn't have the chance too. Finally, I'm done with the prototype/protocol for entre.

-the.building.and.roof.designed.and.built.all.by.myself- ^^

After today's presentation, it will be like.. FINALLY! ^^v I simply can't wait for Thursday to come!.. It's the last day of school, and the last presentation! xD Alright.. Going to bathe now and head school. >.<

Memoris of a Geisha.

Nice.

Michelle Yeoh, Gong Li and Zhang Zi Yi are all simply so pretty.

I talked to ET's mom on the phone before the movie, and I was totally freaked out. Though his mom sounds really friendly and nice.. Nice talking to her anyway, and it will be ET's turn this saturday. hur hur.. >.<

you know you love me*

Sunday, January 22, 2006 @6:03 PM

*Stuck

I am stuck.

Utterly, completely, totally.

you know you love me*

Saturday, January 21, 2006 @2:45 AM

*A day at Cine//Mo.sum.ching.ah! =(

Was home about 2 +++ hours ago.

For I decided to be a good girl today and go home earlier on a Friday night. By the way, this is the first Friday I was home at 12 plus after god know how long. *tired

The whole of today was spent at Cine, and recently
-since.2.months.plus.ago.ba- Cine seems to be my usual hangout place. I'll will be there at least 3 times a week. *opps >.<

First, it was supposed to be meeting ariel, deanna and en for lunch and studying at Galilee. But than Joel and his 2 friends joined us. So in the end, we spent most of the time playing games...!
-uno- *omg The worse thing was.. I didn't win a single game! That was how lousy and unlucky I am. *bOo

Anyway, ET popped by since he was also at town with his friends. We met up for like one minute?... Yeapx.. -.-"'

I was so bored, and therefore we decided to go sing K at 7 pm! haha..! =P Singing K was so so so fun, especially when you haven't get the chance to sing K for so long!!! xD

It's almost 11 pm, ariel and deanna headed home while the rest of us wandered in town deciding where should we head to for supper and maybe.. Drinks?.. -.-"'

I was thinking or either Rouge or Acid Bar. In the end, I ditched them and headed home instead. HAHA! *bleahx >.<

I'm tired and sleepy.

P.S. Wanna see more of the photos we took today? Visit my xanga la.. =P

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*sigh

Ngor yat di sum ching doe mo ah!!!

=(

you know you love me*

Friday, January 20, 2006 @12:44 AM

*12.50 am on a Friday morning

Finally, my New Year's resolutions for 2006 are ready.

1. Club less, and choose chilling instead. -kinda.difficult.but.can.be.done-
2. Spend less and save up! At least $1500 by the end of the year..? -extremely.difficult-
3. Learn the keyboard.
4. Do extremely well for my coming exams, and of cuz IPP and TEP too!
-as.in.at.least.a.grade.B.for.all.the.papers-
5. Be slimmer, fitter and healthier! >.<

and last but not least..

Celebrate my first year anniversay on da 14th November 2006. =P
-but.this.need.2.person.to.fulfill-

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*sigh

It's just a stupid miscommunication.

=(

you know you love me*

Wednesday, January 18, 2006 @12:33 AM

*Give work a break

Just had a nice long shower. Comfortable. (=

Did IMM - International Media Management presentation today. Well quite well, I supposed.. One more presentation down, 3 more to go! xD

Decided to give my mind and work a break after weeks of rushing of projects! >.<>I'm a good shopping guide, right..? Heh.. =P

Dinner at Cine's Bistro was too filling for both of us, and I almost wanna puke man.. =(

I feel really healthy today! ^^

-me.after.good.workout- *heh :)

Since I didn't come up with any New Year's resolution, CNY's resolution coming up soon! See.. Traditional me~ ^^v

you know you love me*

Tuesday, January 17, 2006 @12:00 AM

*What a day

Did our PR - Public Relations presentation today, at least I think it went quite alright.

Finally, one presentation and report down.

4 more presentations and reports to go. =(

Sch end at around 1.30 pm, went to the editing room and stayed till 6 pm to do IMM - International Media Management powerpoint presentation slides for tomorrow.. Yes, there's another presentation. >.<

Afterwhich, decided to accompany Deanna to CP - Compass Point for dinner. In the end, we ended up at SWENSEN eating ice-creams! =D

I love the ice-creams and.. Fries - especially yummy rasins and cookies and cream! ^^v

Reached home around 8 pm, more work to be done.. Have being sitting in front of the computer for the past 3.5 hours or so.. My eyes hurts due to the prolong staring at the computer.. *bOo

*sigh

-10^days to go-

New information came in, and that means..

BACK TO WORK!

Damn.

Oh ya, I scored 33.5/40 for my PR test! ^^

you know you love me*

Saturday, January 14, 2006 @8:58 PM

*a.day.to.remember

Everything that happened today came to me as a surprise.

Thanks for..

The gift -strawberry smells nice! *smile
The wonderful dinner at.. -i forgot the name of the resturant.. *opps
The time you spent with me. (=

Once again..

Happy 2nd month Anniversary! ^^

you know you love me*

@12:12 PM

*Smile

It's our 2nd month anniversary.

So..

Happy anniversary. (=

you know you love me*

@12:03 PM

*Lost.for.words

Many times, I logged into blogger and click on the icon - Create.

Many times, I just sat in front of my computer staring at the screen for minutes and minutes.

Many times, I closed the window before publishing any entries.

This is because I have no idea how and what to publish- too much to say yet words simply can't express them well enough.

*shrugs

Maybe when I have mood, I would update.

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Currently..

Song: Wo Zhen De Shou Shang Le
Book: The Da Vinci Code (1/2 way) & Harry Potter (just started)

you know you love me*

Friday, January 13, 2006 @11:51 AM

Due to the fact that I'm super bored, I 'stole' this from ET's site.. =X

Just for fun.

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THINK BACK 5 YEARS!

How old were you?: 14

What grade were you in?: Sec 2

Where did you go to school?: Seng Kang Sec

Where did you work?: No, too young.. -.-"'

Where did you live?: Singapore

Where did you hang out?: School! =P

How was your hair style?: ermm.. Really short, almost as short as guys? >.<

Did you wear braces?: Never

Did you wear glasses?: Yeah, will I feel like it.

Who was your best friend?: Janice.. Diana.. Kimmy! (=

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend: ermm.. Saw Chan Hui.. -.-"'

Who was your celebrity crush?: hMm.. No idea.

Who was your regular-person crush?: Nah..

How many piercings did you have?: Initally 4, but 1 closes.. So 3

How many tattoos did you have?: NO!

What was your favorite band/singer?: Hei.. BSB! (=

What was your biggest fear?: hMm.. Failing of exams..

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: NONO.

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: NO, underage.

Had you driven yet?: nooooo.. Goldcart?

**THAT WAS THEN.....AND THIS IS NOW**

How old are you?: 19

What grade are you in?: Year 2

Where do you go to school?: Nanyang Poly

Where do you work?: The Beach Hut! (=

Where do u live?: Singapore

Where do you hang out?: TOWN! and well.. TOWN..

How is your hair style?: Long.. Super duper LONG!

Do you wear braces?: Never.

Who is your best friend?: Shall not name, cuz if they are my best friends.. They'll know who they are. (=

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend: ET

Celebrity crush?: Don't have..

Who is your regular-person crush?: Nah..

How many piercings do you have?: Initally 7, 3 closes.. So 4

How many tattoos do you have?: Not now, maybe in near future..

What is your favorite band/singer?: Nope

What is your biggest fear?: Break-ups! =S

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: Nah, never touch those stuffs.

Have you gotten drunk or high yet?: Not drunk, but high.. Yeah..

Have you driven yet?: Nope =(

you know you love me*

Wednesday, January 11, 2006 @12:41 AM

*Ignorance

Some thoughts ran through my mind recently, and I just wanna share it with you ppls. Well.. No offence to anyone, no one should take it personal for this is just an opinon of mine. (=

Recently, I realised that there's a great difference between me and other ppls, as in our perceptions, views and level of acceptance on stuffs are really extremely different. On the other hand, I have a group of ppls who are on the same level as me.

Personally, I feel that one should not be judgemental and decides whether you like or dislike the person based on the way he/she look, act or speak. I believe that everyone have their very own family background, up-bringing and lifestyle, and we should not judge and compare.

One might live a really decent life, as in goes to bed early and wake up early, don't go to clubs at all or often, speaks no or minimal vuglarities, mixed around with ppls who are said to be good and decent. In short, a good boy/girl.

The other might live a more complicated life, as in he/she live a rather vibrant nightlife, someone who's life is upside down, uses vulgarities to a certain level, mixed around with ppls who are at the same level as him/her. In short, a bad boy/girl or night owl or rebellious/wild etc.

I don't see a problem mixing around with ppls who smokes/speaks vuglarities/clubs/have a nightlife/had sex before/once a drug addict/once a criminal/jailed before/fights/visit gelyang/homosexuals/gays/lesbians/people who drinks/sleeps the day aways while extremely active at night etc.

Ultimately, it's not about who you mixed with but yoU yOU YOU.

Damn. It's like 2.12 am now, and I just can't believe I actually type this chunk of.. I don't know what. I must be insane..

Too many views/thoughts/opinons..

I need to be more blind towards this imperfect world.

*-*-*-*-*-

I almost going to make a wasted trip to school tomorrow.

As for the fact that there's no lesson at all tomorrow, and I didn't realised till an hour ago while I was checking emails.. -.-"'

you know you love me*

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @2:30 AM

*So much to say, yet..

As you ppls can see, I've changed the look of my bloggie.. again! haha.. =P I kinda like this simple yet nice design and layout loads.. (=

I know I haven't been updating recently.. Actually, loads of stuffs took place and many thoughts ran through my already very compact mind. Yet I just can't and don't know how to express myself nor do I know where to start and where to end. Hence, I chose to not mention about them and let them be stored somewhere deep in my mind and heart instead.

Please do pardon me alright. =X

Alright, let's see what took place in the past few days alright?..

-03.01.2006^Tue-

It's the first day of school. Nothing special about school, just as bored as usual. *bleahx

Met Renee after school!.. Something I kept looking forward to during all the boring lectures and tutorials! =P Shopped around Bugis, bought a couple of stuffs.. Spend almost $100 that day! Damn. =X

Oh ya, we went for french manicure and one of the girls there is super duper cute! Once she start talking, you just hear her voice.. Simply sweet~ haha.. xP

The Bugis Cafe, a place worth going to. (=

-04.01.2006^Wed-

ET was back on this day.

I skipped filming and went to the airport to pick him up.

After which, had dinner together.

That's it.

-05.01.2006^Thur-

Skipped school. Was feeling freaking tired! >.<

Went HM with mummy and shopped around.

I can't to take a good long break from all school work.. *sigh

-06.01.2006^Fri-

Reached school at freaking 8.45 am for filming, and went off at 5 pm! WTF.. =(

Anyway, rushed home to bathe and prepare before cabbing down to pick Renee up. Went town to meet eNa! Haven't seen her for ages! Miss her so much!.. >.< After a quick dinner and shopping around, took a train and change a bus to M.O.S. to meet up with iaN and Clar~ (=

M.O.S. was not too bad. Nice place~

Photos?.. I'm still wating for eNa to send me.. Maybe you ppls can check my xanga next week for the photos.. (=

Damn it.

I reach home at almost 5 am. Fuck.

Clar's really FUNNY! haha..

-07.01.2006^Sat-

Woke up freaking early to go highlight/cut/dye my hair!.. haha.. Hair sponsored by my aunt. hur hur.. =P

Work's as usual, home at around 4 am.

The rain started at 3.45 am.

>.<

-08.01.2006^Sun-

My sleep was disturbed by my boss's call, to ask me not to go work for the rain haven't not stop yet. haha..

Took the chance and rest at home! *geex.. xD

-09.01.2006^Mon-

School's as usual.

Stayed in school after lesson to do some projects, and I think I need to stay in school this coming Wed to finish up my PR Survey Analysis. My house computer have no MS Words nor Excel. Damn. >.<

Anyway, went town to meet ET and Josh for dinner at 6 pm. Josh treat ice-cream~ *nice =P After which, Josh headed to work while we went to catch our movie at 8 pm - Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of The Were.

The movie was funny and nice, but it's short.

The movie ended at around 9.40 pm. Didn't want to go back so early as tomorrow's a public holiday, so I headed to Renee's house to slack.. While he headed to M.O.S.

If you ppls are smart enough, you should know that I won't be very happy about it. Yet he will never know, cuz guys are such insensitive creatures. Especially him, cuz we shaped our r/s to be this way. So.. I'm not complaining. Just a girl's thought and feeling. =(

I need to have more faith.

you know you love me*

Tuesday, January 03, 2006 @1:11 PM

*tired

I simply can't believe it. The 2 weeks break just end just like that..
-with.a.blink.of.my.eyes-
*sigh I'm not at all ready for school. My life's been upside down then, but now I have to revert it back..
-not.really.cuz.only.applies.on.weekdays-
This morning, I woke up at 9.30 am. The first thought that came to mind..

"Damn. Why the hell am I up at such freaking early hours?! Fuck!.. Maybe I'll just skipped the first 2 hours of lesson.."

I don't like it. I seems to be dragging myself to school, and hopefully it's only today. =S

*sigh

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Have I mention anything about feeling really weird recently? Guess I did, to 2 of my friends. -renee.n.deanna-

*sigh

I don't know what's wrong with me recently, to be accurate it should be for 4 or 5 days or so. Gets irritated/upset/unhappy/pissed/sad/unsecure really easily, with the slighest thing I can flare my temper or just get sad.

My thoughts ran wild. Started to practice my extremely talented art of imagination. With all the stupid and depressing and whatsoever imgainations and images.. I started to lose faith. Don't seems to have enough faith to carry me through the next few months.

Suddenly, everything seems so bleak, meaningless and lifeless. *sigh

What's worse? He gets to take all the shit emails and sms-es from me.. Damn.

"Hey, I'm really sorry for you having to take that kind of shit from me recently. Hope it doesn't affect us that much, cuz I seriously have no idea wtf am I doing/thinking/feeling. Guess it's just the dark/negative side of me surfacing, I'll fight her off back into the deep really soon. Hopefully.."

He don't get to read my blog. So.. I'm just typing it down because I'm feeling really sorry, but don't know how else to show it. So yeapx..

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One more thing.

He's coming back tomorrow, and I'm gonna go to the airport to pick him up or so.. Feeling lost~ I'm not sure how will I react when I see him, and I don't know how to face him again.

Alright, 25 days is not a long period of time. But to a couple that just got together for less than a month and the other party flew off for almost a month! Things gets a little complicated, cuz it's like everything is back to square one.. =X

I might need sometime to get back to feeling comfortable having him around.
-not.shy.or.uncomfortable.but.at.ease.or.something.like.that-

One side of me is happy that he's finally back, another side of me feeling weird. hMm.. Shall see how thing goes tomorrow..

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Currently, I'm in the school's computer lab waiting for my 2 pm lesson to commence
-it.is.1.40.pm.now-

Simply can't wait for school to end at 4 pm! Gonna meet up with Renee at Bugis to shop shop shop..!
-finally.something.to.smile.about- (=

I wanna go to M.O.S soon! Maybe this friday? *bleahx

Did I mention my house got a new coat of paint? My roomieee is like purple. Don't really like the colour, but.. >.<

Oh ya, someone tried to kiss my hand when he took my hand for a handshake that day on New Year Eve. *stunned

That's all I guess.

I'll try to update more, plus my New Year Resolution coming up! Stay tune! (=

.i.just.wanna.be.me.and.not.someone.else.

you know you love me*

Sunday, January 01, 2006 @4:35 AM

Quickie*

Let's have a quick update before I go bathe ya.. (=

Life's still the same, just that it's super duper inverted that's all.
*sleep.at.6.in.the.morning.and.wake.up.at.4.or.5.in.the.noon.usually
sounds.like.the.life.of.my.darlin.ya

It's the first day of 2006!

In this brand new year, I hope that everything will go on smoonthly and it will be an extremely good year for me and everyone else! ^^v

I'm a really happy girl recently. (=

Chivas is GOOD! >.<

3^days to go

you know you love me*

I don't need any of your comments/words.
For those I need, I will be able to hear.
If you're so desperate,
emaiL`