fulfill my little wish; just to grow old with you and be your little girl always*

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I canât believe it,
Tell me Iâm dreaming
But we are still âweâ

It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me

It was on a rainy day that we met
You didnât have a place to go
I said we just met so letâs go slow
But no, you just told me to keep you from the cold

Sorry, I canât take it
Why did you fake it?
Why did we kiss?

And Iâm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
Youâll never know how much Iâve been around
How my heart just frowns

If youâre down
Iâll be your teddy bear, Iâll be your clown
Iâll take you round and round and
If you donât mind, I could be your standing ground
Even if that means, Iâd drown

And baby, thatâll be my one last vow

Tuesday, March 28, 2006 @10:39 AM

*edit

I seriously need to learn to love the way I am, the lifestyle I am having, the friends I have, the country I am living in, and... and... every single thing that happened in my life.
Stopped comparing to everyone else out there and be contented.
Everyone live a different life.

*****

I must be really really really tired.

For a slept from 8 pm yesterday night (an hours after dinner) till 10 am this morning.

Physically and mentally tired me needs much more rest than that I supposed. *shrugs

When will the freaking flu and cough virus leave me alone? Damn.

I'm craving for my honey red bubble tea... >.<

you know you love me*

Saturday, March 25, 2006 @3:00 PM

*bleahx

Suddenly, there's an urge for me to update my blog once again.

The fever went down.. Finally! *phew

Anyways, I'm super duper hungry at the moment!

3 more hours and that means I haven't eat for a full 24 hours. =X

Damn it.

I'm waiting for my honey red bubble tea! And some light snacks like.. Bao? >.<

So slow~~~~~~~~

Alright, gonna bathe now and shall enjoy my food later when it gets back.

you know you love me*

@4:38 AM

I'm sorry..

For the fact that I'm the most lousy girlfriend one can ever find in this world.
-i just want us to be happy. yet for some reason, when you're happy.. i'm not. when i'm happy, you're not. maybe the whole problem lies with me.. i just knew it, i'm not someone for a relationship. i'm better off alone.. :(
For the fact that I'm the most lousy friend one can ever have.
-i just hope that friends can count on me and that whatever happens i will be somewhere in there mind knowing that i'm there for them. yet, it seems so difficult.
For the fact that I'm the most lousy daughter one can ever brought up.
-there seems to be nothing i can help out..

*sigh

I guess I'm better off alone.

you know you love me*

Friday, March 24, 2006 @11:09 PM

*sniff.sniff.sniff :(

I know I haven't been updating nor online for quite a long time. Furthermore, people like deanna thought I was dead.. -.-"'
To be frank, I'm so close to being officially announced dead.

The sudden fever and flu is killing me big time! Damn it. :(

Anyways, since Mr. Ernest Tang Hock Him is not around today and went MOS when I'm sick big time! *hur hur
Shall take the time to update my blog..

Changed the layout of my blog and it is still under construction. I'm still trying to figure out something.. >.<

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3 weeks to the start of IPP - 17.April*

*sigh

Seriously have no idea what's wrong recently.. The so many arguements revloving around the same one subject or so-called problem.

I hate that feeling.. :(

I never like the idea and feeling of him going out without me.

It's just the I will be worried, can't get to bed and everything.

Yet, I know guys need their breathing space and freedom.. *arghx

I hate this shit. :(

Too often I wonder if anyone really knows or understand what I want.

Too often I doubt each and every single thing and people who crossed my life.

Too often I just don't trust or believe.

Too often I feels that life is too much a pain to bear or to be live through.

It must be the drug*

Guess you people haven't get the chance to see my twin yet.. There she is..

you know you love me*

Thursday, March 16, 2006 @9:35 AM

*bOo

Results are out..

-sigh-

I expected it though, didn't really study. It's already surprising to pass all of them..

you know you love me*

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 @1:57 AM

*sigh

Sometimes, I have a feeling that guys are just that so damn not sensitive to girls - in general.

In short, guys just never understand what a girl really wants and needs.

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Every now and then, I kept thinking and wondering if the whole relationship would actually work?.. Is there really a future, an outcome..?

Never had the confidence and faith to say I do..
Cuz I know, the future is so so so so... bleak..
All I know is that..
Every single day..
I pray that it passed peaceful..
No sudden decision of leaving Singapore for another country..
No sudden decision of leaving me alone..
No..
Nothing.
Yet..
I know it was impossible..
For he definately gonna leave some day, one day..
......

Am I holding on to something that is... So unreal..?

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We should never never never judged by looking at the outside of something or even someone..

For what's in there - feelings, thoughts, emotions are always on the contridiction.

Often, I told myself that it's me who think too much about unnecessary stuffs..
But..
These so-called unnecessary stuffs might be significant one day..
For..
Life is so unpredictable..
Often, so many surprises that it hurts..

If only the smile is real..

you know you love me*

Saturday, March 11, 2006 @8:40 PM

*insignificance

A few days back, I felt like shit.
Everything seems to be so damn wrong.
Therefore, insane me when for a hair cut which I regret almost immediately.. =(

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Anyway, Thursday was hell loads of fun! ^^

Zouk for HERSTORY, and than MOS!

*though at mos, there's a kinda weird feeling that's inside me about the whole situation for it's like we're avoiding each other throughout the whole night? I don't know, it's just a weird feeling.. =X

Minor arguements do help in any relationship, don't they?.. *shrugs

you know you love me*

Wednesday, March 01, 2006 @12:42 AM

So loss for words..

Ruiyi asked me not to be too worried about it, but how can I not be..?
It's important to me :(

I missed talking to both you girls.

you know you love me*

I don't need any of your comments/words.
For those I need, I will be able to hear.
If you're so desperate,
emaiL`