fulfill my little wish; just to grow old with you and be your little girl always*

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I canât believe it,
Tell me Iâm dreaming
But we are still âweâ

It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me

It was on a rainy day that we met
You didnât have a place to go
I said we just met so letâs go slow
But no, you just told me to keep you from the cold

Sorry, I canât take it
Why did you fake it?
Why did we kiss?

And Iâm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
Youâll never know how much Iâve been around
How my heart just frowns

If youâre down
Iâll be your teddy bear, Iâll be your clown
Iâll take you round and round and
If you donât mind, I could be your standing ground
Even if that means, Iâd drown

And baby, thatâll be my one last vow

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 @4:22 PM

Fed up.

I am totally done with school.
I can't be bothered with the school system.
I can't be bothered with the grades anymore, a decent pass will do just fine.

From now till graduation, I will make life peaceful and myself invisible.

xoxo

Everyone yearn for different kind of lifestyle.

Kiddo me very much loves to be somebody - the shining star, and wants to have the most exciting/happening/glam/colourful life - and that's why I chose the media. But now I have grown up, my thoughts mature and changes. Then I never know what exactly I want, but now I know.

I just want to live a simple ordinary life.

I don't want the glamour. I don't want the attention. I don't want to compete. I don't want tons of money. I don't want politics. I don't want to be famous. I don't want to bitch. I don't want to be a somebody.

I want to live happily with my family and friends around me.
I want to have a simple stable job after graduation.
I want to have my own little family and a cozy little home in the future.
I want to grow old together with you and be your little girl always.

Don't judge me.
One might want to be somebody, and another might just want to be a nobody.

I choose to be a nobody.

Simplicity is a bliss.

you know you love me*

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 @9:33 AM

edit*

Myspace Glitter Graphics, MySpace Graphics, Glitter Graphics

Lg,
Happy ONE year anniversary!

himhim's little present*

Thank you himhim for all these..

SWEET LOVE*

MUAH*

Later in the night.. A mini little feast I prepared* (:

the very yummy blueberry cheesecake for our first year*

hehe.. baby, ilu*

you know you love me*

Sunday, November 12, 2006 @11:00 PM

shrugs*

Ever since who-know-when, I start to feel like shit on every Sunday night - knowing the fact that there will be school again for the next 5 days..

I dread going to school every single day..

School seems so shit now, for reasons I don't know.

Looking forward to 31 March 2007

you know you love me*

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 @9:38 PM

Exactly ONE YEAR ago, we watched our very first movie*

- Tom Yum Gong

you know you love me*

Monday, November 06, 2006 @10:43 AM

I blasted the music so I don't have to hear the world.

edit*

Trust no forever. Trust no love - for they are only beautiful words*

I am giving up on trying to make things work.. Nature shall take it course from now on - for when the heart dies, nothing gonna make it beat ever again*

It died once. It will die again.

you know you love me*

Sunday, November 05, 2006 @2:47 PM

hur hur..

I suddenly realised why do I love to have my hair to be straight and rebonded so much..
The reason is simple - I am just too lazy to tidy up my hair*

I hate bad hair days!

Alright, I am just being random..

you know you love me*

Saturday, November 04, 2006 @10:06 AM

i hope. i wish. i pray. i work hard towards a shattered surprise..

I am going to take the 3.45pm flight to hk on the 23rd December, Saturday. Upon arrival, I will take the MTR to hk Island than hail a cab to cwb around 9 pm. After which, I will call you and date you out for a movie at Times Square. Oh yes, a nice little surprise.

Our first Christmas together in hk.

On 24th December when the clock struck 12 am, I will bring out your little present I am going to make for you. A present I have never ever give to anyone before.. And I will see your happy face and we will spend a wonderful Christmas.

Flying back on the 26th December, at least I spend our second Christmas together because we missed our first one.

But.. *boom*

Its never gonna happen.

I thought I could use those money you said you would put aside for me to buy the tickets. I spend not a single cent thinking I could at least save up another $400 before 23rd December and plus the $100 I already have.. I thought I could make it and give you a really nice surprise..

But now.. I shall erase the whole stupid idea and just accept the fate.

I am awake*

you know you love me*

@1:53 AM

Smile*

From today onwards, you gain 'Blessing of Freedom' (:

you know you love me*

Thursday, November 02, 2006 @3:32 PM

the other 'you' in YOU..

I was browsing through some random blogs, and most of what I saw was unhappiness/anger/depression/pain/hatred.. ... ... and I wonder why is that so..?...

Blog has become our inner-voice, storing our thoughts and feels - though not totally.

Looking at friends around, those sweet smiles and happy faces - but why all those sad and depressing entries once locked behind the doors of their lonely room?... I guess everyone is the same...

The other 'you' in you is simply too proud and timid to face the crowd...

We are often feeling depressed and screwed up in life; but have you ever thought why?... Oh.. Yes, at least for me.. I did. But nothing is improving nor am I getting better. Why so?... I don't know.. Each day I spend most of the time thinking and making decisions, but nothing has yet come to a definiate conclusion.

Maybe we are just all lost in our very own world; thinking too much and making simple things and issues complicated. On top of that, we are just too proud to be weak in reality.

If i have a chance, I would want to erase every single thing and start anew.

xoxo

dread school, i wanna get out of here - singapore.

you know you love me*

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 @5:34 PM

a tiny winy change*

15 minutes to 5.45 pm; awwwwwwwwwwwwww..... I cant wait for school to end.. Anyway, love my new blog layout! What you guys think?! wahahaha.. Credits to Joelle for helping me with this nice blog layout!

Thanks!!! :D

Nice song(s) coming up next! Till then..

xoxo

emo;depression;confusion;negative... all in the blood*

you know you love me*

I don't need any of your comments/words.
For those I need, I will be able to hear.
If you're so desperate,
emaiL`